I sort of hate this blog. There - I said it. I hate this blog. I thought it would be cool to write about things again, but this has become some strange listing of events and accomplishments/challenges. I feel like I am writing a cover letter more than expressing anything in here. I'm not saying I want to do some emotional purge into the internet world. Yes, I have matured slightly since 19. I'm just saying there must be a balance between emotion and events. It's sort of funny I'm having this blogger identity crisis. I'm listening to the song Who Am I Supposed To Be by John Lennon from the Royal Tenenbaums soundtrack. I used to listen to this song on repeat. Some things never change.

I'm home alone. I just had some hot chocolate and watched ace of cakes. instead of ironing out the kinks in my resume and cover letter for internships i'm sitting here looking up cake design tricks. i don't know why i'm even writing in this thing. probably just to waste time. so i'm applying for 2 intenships as of now. the one i want the most is with lauren greenfield. I'm trying to remain positive, but i don't want to get my hopes up. i feel like i could learn so much from working in her studio over the summer. I know I could do a good job, I just hope they can see that potential. The other one is FotoVision, a nonprofit dedicated to documentary photography. I have been in contact with them and they seem very excited about me applying. I'm going to check out a few other organizations, but I'm going to make it my goal to get all the information out to those two by wednesday. They are both based out of California and I've never seen myself on the west coast. FotoVision is in San Francisco and Lauren Greenfield is in Venice. Who knows, maybe i'll love that part of the country. Noah said he wouldn't mind moving out there for the summer before he leaves the country. That was nice to hear because I don't want to add to the months I wont see him. But last night he found out that many med schools dont take AP credits for foundation classes like bio so he might be here over the summer finishing that up. I really hope that isn't the case. He's burning out and I don't know if he can do much more in this pressure cooker. Keep your fingers crossed. So that's pretty much the notable things in my life right now. I'm going to be the news director at the staion for another year and I'm excited about that as well. We are headed in a good direction. We have an RSS feed for our podcast which makes me feel pretty cool. I'm still using this as a tool to waste time so I'm going to stop that now.